shosho mella.

it was really interesting for me to do the spiritual gift test yesterday.
to really embrace my spiritual gifts.
something i know that is there, but because of my failure
i pretend that it wasn't there anymore.
such a stupid thing to bluff myself.

to be honest,
i think i do bluff myself quite alot of times.
HAHAHA.
int the bid of an attempt to "escape".
but ya la, i have to face it at the end of the day.

the best example is talking bout letting go,
i always believe that if i am prepared to let go then i will accept it.
but surprisingly, this principle is not working for me this time round.
on second thoughts, im sure there is more than this.

in the morning,
i will think that i've let go.
but when the night sinks in,
oh well, it gets tough.
but i get by i guess.
just hope the eyebags wont build up.
(its a lie, it has already BUILT up. LOL)

anyway, i've successfully shifted my focus to God.
but im still in the midst of drawing nearer.
here are a couple of things i gotta do.

1. be thankful; even to the smallest details
2. pray more; every itty bitty stuff
3. if i need to pass a msg, pass the ENTIRE msg.

currently, this it is.
but its more than enough.
being thankful is really something that i am not good in doing. (:

oh ya, one last thing.
im starting to think alot.
but this time its not bout me.
its about others.


toodles, gonna call ada.